My Perception of Job and Earning - The Completed Version

I receive the education expenses not as obligatory tuition fees but as voluntary [gratitude gifts] at Awaya-Juku, which is my private-sector educational institution at Yokosuka in Japan, from my students’ family budgets.

I have thought this voluntary [gratitude gifts] system as a consequence of two reasons.
When I still received obligatory tuition fees from my students’ family budgets, I couldn’t swallow the fact that I myself was the price decider of the tuition fees though I worked for my students’ profits in all seriousness.
I felt myself insulting my own emotion that I took care of them.
And furthermore I had the pride that it couldn't be put a value on that I worked for them with my whole heart and body.

That was why I got the idea - the voluntary [gratitude gifts] system.
And, as Confucius said “I threw away my hesitation at 40.” :) I also, when I was about 40, reopened Awaya-Juku with the judgement “no problem” and without any fear.

So, I had examined this issue from every perspective before then, in about two decades.
And the conclusion I reached is as follows.

I desire that the other's own depends on the other's [self] and my own depends on my [self] when it is given or taken.
Because I hope establishment of trust relationship with mutual [selves].

*[Self] could be restated as “will.”

Looking at our surroundings, there are almost situations that “one's own doesn't depend on his/her [self] and the other's own doesn't depend on his/her [self]“ in the world around us when it is given or taken.

For example, pricing - for what? To settle the other’s own to be taken without depending on his/her [self] in advance. Many of advertisement - for what? To wheedle his/her [self].
Many people seem not to want to believe in the other and to overcome anxiety in his/her own mind.

The saying “You have to ensure your own livelihood for yourself.” suggests that it is approved that someone takes the other’s own without depending on his/her [self].
The saying “Don’t make yourself a nuisance.” becomes relevant only after accepting the premise that taking the other’s own without depending on his/her [self] doesn’t make oneself a nuisance.
In this way, today's world depends on people to approve taking the other’s own without depending on his/her [self].
But I don’t like it.

Then I reflected on my careers and experiences.
I have done several kind of job or earning money, and experiences with no unpleasantness for me in them were playing at a casino and affiliate advertising, that is that I gave my own depending on my [self] and took the other's own depending on his/her [self].
But the only one cheerful career experience for me was to be given voluntary [gratitude gifts] at jukus.
The people who gave me them, in fact a student of mine or a mother of theirs, were differently from casino or affiliate, so they didn’t plan earning for their own sake but sincerely gave me the voluntary [gratitude gifts].
Then I thought hopefully that I would have established trust relationship with mutual [selves] of us, including someone like us, if I had had more time with them.
That is why to be given voluntary [gratitude gifts] at jukus was the only one cheerful career experience for me.

When I reopened Awaya-Juku, I considered that both the obligatory tuition fees system and the voluntary [gratitude gifts] system need the same number of students enough to keep being managed.
Actually I could make a living on the voluntary [gratitude gifts] system only without another way to earn for about one year, 2013 - 2014.
I have never heard such a thing even though for a single year.

Practically my students and their mothers and guardians didn’t have understood my motives very much.
So some of them resigned with misunderstanding or anxiety, maybe considering that my coaching methods were also strange without seeing the effects.
And many of them resigned or keep absent after some mothers caused trouble over the misunderstood [gratitude gifts] system as taking ostrich policy.

adapted from “The Ostrich Problem” and The Danger of Not Tracking Your Progress - 99U, 羊イラスト4-無料 フリー, 【お絵かき】羊のイラストを描いてます♪ - Autumn_Breeze

It turned 20 students into 2 students.
But the two have showed the great fellow-feeling enough for me to be impressed greatly.
Their great fellow-feeling has stayed constant in their hearts, faces and eyes.
So I have not recruited other people.
I have kept waiting for them with the two as calling them.
I believe that some or all of them come back.
I have not thrown the hope away yet.
But at a time I must put them to the test in a level-headed manner.
There is a possibility that they don’t radically fit in the voluntary [gratitude gifts] system and Awaya-Juku, that is that they don’t want it fundamentally.
May all of them together fit in it!
Or can’t they permit a bit of stumbling on the road with no trail and sign?

adapted from lost in the darkness by baravavrova on DeviantArt

Are they similar to ostrich and sheep that far?
Still I am waiting for them like the father of the prodigal son in Luke 15:11-32, but the two not like the elder brother :)
At the time, the hope will come true more strongly in all together.

adapted from Duits consortium werkt aan IoT-beveiliging | Nieuws | Computable

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